2010

I just finished reading my blog entry from: New Years Eve of 2008. Well, here it is fixing to be 2010 and I honestly have no idea what God will do. I am writing this thinking how humbled I am to be a part of such a great church and church family. There are so many people have invested in me spiritually and because of that my walk with Christ will never be the same. Physically has been for sure the hardest part of 2009. I have left behind almost over 38 lbs in 2009. I think this will be the first News Years when one of my resolutions is not wanting to lose 40lbs...and that's probably what excites me the most when I look back at 2009. Honestly, God has done so BIG things not so much in my life but most everyone around me. Many of my friends have gotten engaged, moved jobs, had kids, bought their first home, or been married. Its funny when I look at the last sentence I JUST typed, it makes me angry at God a little because not one of those things happened to me this year. While God did do some big things in my life, he did not the ones that I really wanted. Selfishly, I fall into the trap of "God, you owe me", look at what you did with everyone else. When I start feeling like that God ALWAYS directs back to Matthew 20, which is the parable about the workers in the vineyard. I find myself grumbling and compiling just like the worker did to the land owner(God) about only getting a Denarius for working hard all day, while others worked less than me and got the same pay. This is what my convo looks like with God: "Hey Shannon, you agreed to surrender your life to me and let me do EVERYTHING in your life on MY timing" to which my answer is this "I know but I feel like I'm always last when it comes to your blessings and its hard" Gods answer "So was dying on a cross for ya" -conversation over!!
My 2010 New Years Resolution is one that I have never said before but there is a first time for everything, so here it is: Is that by new years of 2011, I have no new years resolutions!!